Two Equals One

Within the United States we set aside this day to remember a courageous man that lead the Civil Rights Movement, in the 1950s, in heroic proportions. He was a man that chose to face hardships and deep ridicule to help create a place where all human race could exist equally free.

Martin Luther King Day is day that always a thought provoking day for me. What is seen is the fact that my skin is a beautiful shade of mocha (thanks mom and dad) and yet I seemingly carry two worlds within this one universe.

These two worlds at times externally may appear different and yet internally to me, they are the same. Joined by love that lives by the very blood that courses through my veins. The two worlds woven together with a welcomed and inseparable bond.

I am not black.

I am not white.

I am not two parts but a whole.

I am not merely the shade of pigment expressed for all to see.

The internal far outweighs the external burden one often carries. In greater clarity…character and an external position of the inward man should be our first and initial gut reaction when looking upon ourselves which will inevitably reflect upon others.

I am a daughter.

I am a woman.

I am loved.

I am me.

Today as you venture into shared space with other humans, ask yourself, “What do I first see?”

You can’t judge a book by its cover.

Have a joy filled day!

Love That’s Near

As I opened the heavy outer metal door to my apartment, my face was instantly greeted with the awareness that the chill of winter was quickly creeping in on us.  Living in the mid-west, winters can be bitter and fiercely cold. This day wasn’t that type of coldness but it was enough to stun my still sleepy self.

Although I was tempted to return back into the safety and warmth of my blankets inside, I braced myself and walked out into the chilly morning with the door slamming quickly behind me.

As I am walking out of my humble abode, as I typically do throughout my day, I struck up a conversation with God. I started with the usual, “Lord I invite you into this day,” and that is where the conversation abruptly turned. Every step I made on the pavement toward my car was a simple, yet divine, new revelation of the God’s (Yahweh) heart. He quietly said, “I want to be your day. I am your day. I am your awake time and I am your sleep. I am everything.” Those words are simple and yet they offer profound truth.

God encompasses us fully and completely, that is the benefit of being known in true Beloved Identity in Him. I realized at that moment I don’t have to re-invite Him into a place that He never left. We don’t have to continue to ask God over and over and over again to come and be with us, when He is with us always.

“And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

Matt 28:20b

We can walk in assurance that He has and never will leave us. I believe that there is this unsaid pressure from the Christian arena that says that if you are experiencing doubt, haven’t done your morning devotions (PS you can break free from religion’s mandates and do your Bible study at night as well. There is no set rule in God’s kingdom on when to seek Him, it just says, “Seek Him.” ….ok, I digress…),  and haven’t followed the 5 step program to getting closer to God, that He sees you as not measuring up and doesn’t want to be as close with you and somehow found another address to live at for awhile until you start acting “good” again. My friends, that couldn’t be further from the truth.

Where could I go from your Spirit?
Where could I run and hide from your face?
If I go up to heaven, you’re there!
If I go down to the realm of the dead, you’re there too!
If I fly with wings into the shining dawn, you’re there!
If I fly into the radiant sunset, you’re there waiting!
Wherever I go, your hand will guide me;
your strength will empower me.
It’s impossible to disappear from you
or to ask the darkness to hide me,
for your presence is everywhere, bringing light into my night

Psalm 139: 7-11 TPT

You will just have to face the hard truth, you cannot escape God. He loves you, right now. He loves you in this exact moment. Yes, in this moment that you just yelled at your husband. This moment that you just screamed at your kid. This moment that you are finding it hard to forgive. This moment that you think you can figure this life out with God’s assistance. This moment of dishonoring. This moment when you want to take matters into your own hands. This moment where you are seeking other things to fulfill you (friends, relationships, food, shopping, sports, social media etc….) other than God.

Yeah, He sees you and is already well aware of what is going on, it is no surprise to Him. He isn’t mad or angry. His constant motivation is to love. He always desires us to be so aware of our Beloved Identity that our life response is to live solely from that belief.

We don’t have to earn God’s love. It’s not about if we do “A, B, C and D” that it will somehow move Him to love us more or that we now have stepped back into a place of receiving love BECAUSE we have done our “duty.” We can never earn something that is free.

When we grow in, and become so aware of our Beloved Identity, we can freely walk in His unconditional love that no matter what we have done or haven’t done, His love remains consistently the same.

So don’t let shame and guilt take over and spread the lies in your mind that you are missing out on a level of love due to something you did or didn’t do. You are worthy of love, period. I implore you, don’t let the heavy weight of religious rituals press you into a proverbial corner because you have been “bad.”  News flash, God isn’t up there keeping score on your day.

Now, for the record (and all of the religious spirits that may be squirming), I will say this….even though God’s love never changes and is consistent, there may be times when you feel “distant” from that love for several reasons: comparison, un-forgiveness, jealousy, pride, selfish ambition, outbursts of anger, rage, gossip…(etc…). Notice I said, “feel” distant. You really aren’t distant in proximity it’s just that there is something that has become an impostor on your true identity as a beloved son and daughter. Of course acting out on any of the reasons I mentioned above are not advisable and definitely reap some pretty crappy consequences when utilized, but knowing that those things are not our true nature as Beloved causes true grace to be exposed in our hearts to quickly remind us who we are. I don’t know about you, but I am thankful for that constant IV drip of grace!

So, as we enter into the beginning of a fresh new year, remember:

•you’re worthy of love

•you can’t escape God

•God is ALWAYS near

•you don’t need to earn something that’s free

•Grace can bring us back to reality of Beloved Identity

Happy New Year!

2020 is going to be a great year!

Have a joy filled day!

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy New Year!

It is hard to believe that another year has gone by. So much life happens in 365 days it is hard to sometimes encapsulate all that has transpired.

This past year was a year of beautiful and trying growth. It was a year of greater awareness of who I am as a Beloved Daughter of God. It was a year of new discoveries and new friendships. It was a year full of the unexpected, good and the not so good. My faith was challenged to the very core.

I was able to travel to Austin, TX, Florida and a few other in-state vacations with family and friends. It has been a wonderful year of adventure and exploration.

But if I am honest amidst all of the wonderful things, life still happened. This year has also been one of the most challenging years. I have had to walk in a level of grace that I wasn’t sure I would be able to maintain, but God. I can say today, with all certainty, that if it was not for God in my life the hard things would have snuffed the very breath out of me. And I can say with absolute surety that the dear close friends in my life are truly the real MVPs! The late night calls, the plethora of “HELP!!!!” texts, embraces, words of encouragement, words of hard truths and their consistent love through the process is nothing I take for granted! Friendship is an invaluable gift!

If you’re reading this and you don’t have these types of friendships in your life, I implore you to make that investment this year. It is imperative in life to have solid friends that surround you no matter what (and I’m not talking about blood family, although they can be friends as well). There is just something about being vulnerable with good friends that can bring an element to your life that often exceeds your expectations. I would not be the person I am today with my dearest friends. You NEED iron to sharpen iron. (Side PSA for my girls: all you girls reading this that are looking for a significant other or talking to a guy and he doesn’t have any guy friends, um, red flags!!! Not to sound harsh but ya probably should walk (ok, maybe run) the other direction). All I know is friendships in my life are a non negotiable, it is imperative! Friends that love you no matter what are vital! Get one, or two, or three!!!

I welcomed in the new year with a community of friends that I am so thankful for. I shared with them that I am not into New Year’s resolutions at all. I am don’t feel I need to succumb to the pressure that I have to be something more or better because the clock strikes midnight ushering in a new year. I am of worth and value as I am, right now. I don’t have to perform or do things to make me more lovable or accepted. Life is a journey and we get to take it one day at a time. Believe me, as long as you have breath, there will be opportunities for growth all year long.

So today I get to look back on the past year and say, “Wow, girl you have done well and come so far…THANK YOU, JESUS!” I get to look back and know that the past doesn’t have to carry into this new year. The new year is a like a new book. Today is the first page of a new chapter. I am looking in great expectation and hope for all that the ink of life will pen in the fresh pages and chapters ahead.

My story is just beginning…

•This year know you’re enough, right now.

•This year know that anything is possible.

•This year know last year doesn’t hold your future. Your future is now.

Have an amazing hope filled year!

What Time Is It?

In the past several months my mind has been pondering the essence of time. All throughout the day we are checking our watches, the clock on the wall or our cell phones to see what time it is. We set alarms on our phones to be sure we get up in the morning and don’t miss out on that important Monday meeting. We use a paper planner or the calendar on our phones to set a plan for our daily lives. We plan for a day, a week, a month and some plan out a full year ahead.

I have mentioned it on another blog post that I am not a huge lover of a planned schedule. I feel so confined with a time budget that it makes me itchy inside. All you extreme planners you can stop cringing now because that is not what we are going to be chatting about today.

I was driving in my think tank and this question rose up in my noggin, “Do I value time?” The question stopped me dead in my tracks. Whenever a question like this drops into my soul I know I am about to go on a little thought journey, and I wasn’t wrong about my assumption.

There are 1,440 minutes in a day, um, that is a lot of minutes! Seriously y’all, that blows my mind! I know I typically don’t ever think of the amount of minutes there are in a day because I am usually just concerned about how I will get all the things I need to get done. I freely assume that time will just be there for me.

Time can be a friend and a foe. Time causes those in grief to feel even more distant from what was lost while still having to carry the pain as a reminder. Time, when encapsulated as a whole event, can make us say things like, “I had a great time!” We love when time is on our side. We love when time seems to be good to us. We love time when it allows us moments to share with others.

Time is a precious gift. Even in our greatest efforts, we cannot control time. Time is sweetly given, but it cannot be manipulated or cajoled.  In the Bible King Solomon was right to say that there is an appointed time and purpose for everything. We are born at the exact time we were intended to be. We are living because God has divinely given us, time.

God sees time from a whole different perspective. In the realm of God’s kingdom time doesn’t exist the way we think of time. Earthly time is different than God’s time. A day to him is like a thousand years.  Think of this…..through every generation God has remained the same, He has never changed and never will. Time cannot change God (MIND BLOWN), that is so reassuring!

He doesn’t worry about time like we do. We tend to think that if something hasn’t happened yet (our life timeline and our schedule) that it is too late or it is never going to happen. We tend to define our whole lives on time and what we have or have not accomplished (ie: start a career,  buy a home, find “the one,” have kids, travel, open a business, end or start something later than we should have etc.). But I want to challenge our thought process on this. The way I see it is, every day and every step of our journey is ON TIME.  You haven’t missed out on something because it didn’t fit your time line or come into the confines of social expectations.

God doesn’t think linear in the realms of right or wrong.

Most all of us have a routine, something that we are familiar with that brings us comfort and creates a safe mental space that allows us to feel we can take on the day with confidence. We make great efforts to try and maintain this familiarity so we can feel that we are “ok” or doing the “right” thing in this thing we call, life. Routines bring consolation that we have things under control and, in relative theory, will eventually obtain the reward for our continuous efforts. Even with our greatest effort to “be good” and “do right” we have to remember that things within the time of you being good or right can be altered in a moment with the invasion of interruptions and unexpected happenings.

Just remember this, God isn’t routine. He is not confined to routine or our earthly time. He never does things the same way. He is constant, yes, but he is not a method. He is not restricted by time.

I have been wondering what it would look like if I truly gave God full reign over the time he has given to me. To really view my earthly existence as the precious gift it is. To let time lead. To honor time. To not think of it as an endless commodity that I get to do whatever the heck I want to. To respect time, eternal time. To not see time as a means to my own end.

To be so aware of time that it changes my perspective of what we hold on to and what needs to go. That it changes my perspective of how I see the world, through the lens that this life is truly not about me.

Once a minute goes by that’s it, you don’t get it back. I am learning and choosing to make every minute count.

What do I think about? What do I dwell on? Who do I invest in? Who do I help? Who do I serve? Who do I encourage? Who do I make time for? Who do I take time out for, even if it isn’t convenient? Who do I need to go to and make things right? Who do I need to show kindness to? Who do I need to call? Do you say things like, “if I can only have ‘this’ THEN I will be fulfilled and feel better about who I am?” You get the idea…these are just a few questions to get your mind thinking about what can get our minds percolating on the treasure of time and what we are choosing to do with what we have been given.

Lately I am being reminded to ask myself, “How am I being intentional to do well with all the time I am have allotted in a day?”

Time is only eternal in God’s kingdom. That we would live and love with this eternal perspective here on earth.

Time allows us to be present.

Time is a gift.

Time can be a friend.

Time is a foe.

Time is grace.

Time is new mercy every morning.

The time is now, to do.

Praying you find peace this season walking in the awareness of eternal time.

Have a hope filled day!

Til next…. (ahem) time! 😉

What’s In Your Cup?

I like bubbly water! Cold, carbonated water is absolutely refreshing to me. I like regular H2O also, because, well, nothing can quite quench your thirst like water can. Oh, and don’t think that I would fail to mention my absolute love for coffee! I generally like my coffee with no cream or sugar but from time to time I like to mix it up and have fun with a healthy flavored creamer or steamed coconut milk.

One might say I have a drinking problem. Now, it isn’t THAT kind of drinking I am referring to so don’t go into a panic. At any given time during the day at work it is common for me to have anywhere from 3-5 drinks going at the same time. I am not sure how I acquired this talent, but I have accepted it and I don’t see me being delivered from it any time soon.

Last week I discussed the importance of allowing yourself to fully feel pain (you can read that here: I Felt That ). To not run from pain or try to cover it up with relationships, work, TV, movies, food etc. but to to allow yourself to feel the pain fully, let it have its work. Pain is an invitation, do you RSVP to it or do you just ignore it and not respond?

After I posted last week something kept coming up inside of me. My thinker was working on overload (no shocker there). I remembered a passage in the Bible that speaks of Jesus being familiar with our pain.

Isaiah 53:3 NIV

He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

Although this did seem to bring some comfort I was still questioning HOW He could be familiar with our pain. Then it hit me, He was crucified.

I began to think about the horrific and bloody crucifixion that Jesus endured. He was beaten and bruised and He wasn’t even recognizable due to His flesh being ripped and His face marred so badly. He definitely felt such excruciating physical pain that day- I can hardly imagine it. But as bad as this display of physical pain was I still was questioning how He could be acquainted with our emotional pain. Then the light bulb went on.

I traveled back to the night before Jesus was crucified and remembered something He said while He was praying in the garden:

“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” Luke 22:42

I began to wonder what was in this “cup” that He was desperately pleading for His Father to take. What was it that He didn’t want to drink? What didn’t He want to partake of? I mean he was sweating drops of blood the pain and agony He was about to face was so intense. I can recall a couple of times where I was praying so hard that the blood vessels in my face all burst! I mean it wasn’t drops of blood dripping out of my pours but it looked like a million red freckles all over my face. I had fun trying to explain that to my co-workers the next day.

I truly believe in His heart, He knew He would have to drink of this “cup.” He was about to partake of this pain of suffering. I am not a theologian, but I have a tiny hunch that the emotional pain that he felt far outweighed the physical torment and agony.  In that moment, I finally realized that He truly is acquainted with our pain and suffering. Just like me, He asked the question to God, “Ok, I know that I have to go through this but really if there was another way could we opt for that instead?”

I don’t think for one moment that He was asking His Father to let Him skip out on the whole death thing, He knew that is what He was sent to do. All the suffering that He had to do endure taught Him obedience which eventually led to the ultimate obedience, death on a cross.

He chose to drink of this proverbial cup to obey His Father. So, we too must drink from each “cup” that is presented to us in life. There are so many times I want to run from the “cup” or even try to pass the “cup” on to someone else or just ignore it completely.  If I could just share the contents of my cup onto someone else, then I don’t have to bear the burden of suffering alone.

You see what I didn’t see before now was there was something else mixed in that cup. Along with the suffering and the pain, there was love. Love is what led him to the cross and obedience kept Him there as He was clinging for breath.  I think He was perhaps asking the Father if there was some other way to show my love, can we do that? But God had a redemptive plan. He knew love needed to be shown in this way so we could taste of love when we are embracing the pain of life.

It says in the famous love chapter that love suffers long. I think Jesus qualifies for long suffering in love.  He died so we could daily remember to drink of His cup. Yes, there will be suffering and pain in this life, but it is palatable when love is present.

I want my cup to be full of love even when it seems pain, hurt, trials and suffering are getting mixed in. I want the overflow of my cup to be still be rooted in love. I am definitely not perfect in this, but I am learning and growing. It’s a beautiful and sometimes seemingly long journey.

What is in your cup?

What are you offering to others out of your cup?

If you had to drink the cup that you were getting ready to serve someone else, would it tastes sweet or leave a bad taste in your mouth?

That your cup would run over with love daily.

Until next time!

Have a joy-filled day!

 

I Felt That

Well, this post has been in incubation for quite some time. I hemmed and I hawed about when, or if, I should post this. It isn’t bad or good, it’s honesty. It’s vulnerability. It’s courage. It’s an unmasked look into what is reality. It’s freedom.

If you know me at all this will come as no shock to you that I tend to see things black and white (those who know me will get a little chuckle out of that…..no pun intended LOL!). I like to accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative and don’t mess with the in between.  I have definitely learned how to show grace in any given situation and how to view things from another’s perspective, but for the most part I see things pretty straight forward. Depending on how you perceive it, it can be a blessing and a curse.

Believe it or not, I actually like me. I like that I have crazy curly hair that seems to take a bagillion years to grow and I would love for it to be super long, not Rapunzel long like in Tangled, but a lot longer than it is currently. I like that I am fun to be around (except when I am hangry, run for the hills! haha). I love to see others laugh even if it is at my expense! I love that I am artistic and creative. I like that I can make people feel comfortable and at ease when they are around me. I like that people can feel free to be themselves around me (no need to put up a front, because I will generally sniff that out like an English Setter fresh on the hunt!). I like that I have the ability to see a need and desire to help in any way I can to fulfill that need. There is something so beautiful to me in helping someone succeed or accomplish whatever it is that they were doing. There is more that I could convey, but you get the gentle gist that I like who I am,  who I have become and who I am still becoming.

I assure you that me describing how I view myself comes from a healthy confidence. I know who God made me and it is ok to embrace the wonderful ways that make me, me!

There is one thing though, that I have realized in the past few months is, that I don’t like to feel.  Yes, you heard that correctly. I can see you now with your furrowed brow, that puzzled look on your face and your head tilted slightly as if to say, “did she really just say that,” yep, I sure did.

So let me start by saying this, I feel ALL kinds of things to varying degrees, pain, joy, happiness, sadness, grief, loneliness, heartache, etc. There are some things I would obviously love to feel more than others, but let’s face it, life happens and we gotta feel all the feels.

I am sure at some point in your life you have felt one of these feelings. I am going to go on a wild guess and say that you don’t particularly like the “negative” emotions that tend to come your way. Well, that makes two of us…..or should I say more honestly, “it used to make two of us.”

You see as odd as it may sound I have learned to welcome deep pain. The kind of deep pain that hurts so intensely that you feel like your physical heart is going to shatter upon the glass floor of your soul and your body is aching in agony….yeah, THAT kind of pain.

I used to run from this kind of pain. I wouldn’t even let myself feel the pain because it was just too heavy, too raw, to real. But it was in the quivering moment I inquisitively opened myself up to feel the pain, to become acquainted with it, to let it take its bloody course through my veins, I realized it was in and of itself, the anecdote for what ailed me. (yes, as I opened the door to feel the pain there were floods of tears whilst I rested in the fetal position for hours…just keepin’ it real!)

Pain brings with it the announcement that something is amiss, something isn’t quite right and it needs to be mended and made whole.  If we continue to dismiss the pain, pretend it doesn’t exist or modify our behavior or actions to accommodate our avoidance of said pain, we are ultimately delaying the healing process with a great potential for the pain to fester.

Pain has this lovely way of continually trying to get attention and make itself known. If  we continue to avoid and ignore it, it will find its way out some other way. Sometimes it is through overwhelming sadness, anger, depression, avoidance, un-forgiveness and anxiety, to name a few.

Pain is an invitation. It invites us to ask questions, to process, to grow, to learn and eventually to heal.

Pain is not a dwelling place, but a place to pass through to find healing. It is something that we can welcome, even when it is hard and seems to never want to relent. I know pain can seem to come often and stay longer than we had hoped, but don’t give up there is light at the end of the tunnel!!

Give yourself permission to feel the pain.

When pain comes, take time to process through the pain.

Do not let others shame you into thinking that you cannot or should not feel the pain you are feeling. You don’t have to “get over it” at another’s demand.

If you feel that you are stuck in the pain, ask for help. Go to a trusted and reliable friend or a professional counselor/therapist, but for goodness sake please don’t go through the pain alone.

Embracing pain shows courage and vulnerability.

I want to leave you with this poem I wrote awhile back:

REALITY

Dour is the infinite hour

Of gaping holes and bleeding thoughts.

A fierce tsunami rips through the sorrowed soul

Thrashing the heart with its ceaseless torrent.

Come swiftly, come strong, don’t delay in your pursuit.

I feel you close now, I am bleeding with truth.

I inhale, I hold my breath, I feel the sweet release.

There, there it is.

The pain that sounded the alarm is now giving…..

I exhale, life.

 

Be strong and courageous today!

 

Looking Back

In the last couple of weeks I have been thinking and reflecting on this past year. I have spent many moments flooded with tears of overwhelming gratitude and a heart of thankfulness for all that has transpired. It seems just like yesterday that I was transitioning careers. It is so surreal that it has been a full year since that change occurred and yet the volume of things that have filled this last year are unprecedented.

As I look back I see this nervous and scared girl who didn’t fully know what I was getting myself into…(ok let’s be honest, that first month I was freaking out inside and questioned daily if this new job was really for me). But as I begin to take a closer look I see a girl who was brave, courageous and willing to be marked by obedience. A girl that despite physical and mental hardships was willing to trust God. I could trust His nature and character beyond what I could sense or feel in the natural. I knew that if He called me to this new adventure He will be the one to see me through….and HOLY WOW has He seen me through!!!

The past year has brought a plethora of adventure, trials, hardships, disappointments, victories, hurts, joy, greater understanding, abundant grace, new freedoms and restoration. Within all of the aforementioned, I can assuredly say, that this last year has been a year of extreme growth.

I haven’t seen this much intensity in the growth process as I have in this last year. I don’t know about you, but when I am going through growth I don’t always see that I am actually in a growing process. I definitely FEEL the growing pains, but I am not always aware that the process is taking place.

The following phrase was dropped in my noggin this morning, “what has been germinating and growing in the darkness is about to come to light.” This sentence kept repeating itself in my mind so I knew I better give some attention to it.

Have you ever seen the time lapse of a seed planted into soil? If you haven’t, take a few minutes and check it out, it is so fascinating !!! In the time lapse you’ll notice right away something so remarkable, the first roots that forge don’t grow up, they grow down. The small seed first begins to stretch its roots deep into the soil. You’ll then notice the roots begin to stretch horizontally. Keep in mind all of this is happening underneath the soil not yet visible to the naked eye (sidebar: why do we even say, “naked eye?!” Do I even want naked eyes?! I digress….ok, back to our little seed)……As you keep watching the little seed starts to have a tiny shoot beginning to grow upward until it meets the ceiling of the soil. Then something so miraculous happens, the tiny shoot starts pushing….and pushing….and pushing…..the soil begins to break up….there’s resistance….but it keeps pushing and pushing…..the soil starts to form what looks like a mountain…but the tiny shoot keeps pushing and pushing, until all of a sudden the glorious green shoot pokes through the soil!! It made it through!!! It is feeling the light of life!

I confess, that no matter how many times I have watched these time lapse videos, I find myself cheering that little seed on, “you’re almost there! Don’t give up! Just a few more pushes and you will break through!” I am convinced this is how God views us as well!! He is constantly cheering us on!

Today it has become more clear and evident that God wasn’t growing me “up” He was growing me “down.” Like the seed in the darkened soil, He was causing my roots to grow so much deeper. Then, as we saw in the time lapse, the horizontal growth started and I got a bit excited thinking, “Yes, this must be it, I get to grow up-ward now!” But nope, false alarm we needed a root system that will help stabilize the growth needed to survive the fruit above ground……so there it lies STILL under the soil, moving its roots to the left and to the right.

That is, until this past year. I am beginning to realize this last year has been the beginning of the emerging. The struggles, the failures, the getting-back-up-after-failures, the friction, the rubbing, the stripping away, the molding, learning new muscles (not referring to physical ;)) and being stretched, has all been a part of the strategic plan.

The plan that has caused me to persevere when I felt like throwing in the towel. The plan that makes me want to continue to fight for truth in the inward parts. The plan that makes me want to yield to the process. The plan that allows me to receive/give love and grace. The plan that requires patience and understanding. The plan that hopes in what it cannot see. The plan that holds on to promises God has given, without wavering. The plan that solidifies more of who God is; faithful, provider, healer, hope, confidant, assurance and peace (This list could go on and on!).

The plan that ultimately has led me into a deeper TRUST. Trust in the One who started the work will also be faithful to complete it. Somehow I got the notion I could help Him with HIS plan! Did I not learn anything in the Bible from Sarai, Abrams wife?!?!?! Face palm.

Disclaimer: do NOT try this at home—–> do not try to control your life! Loose the grip, friends! Let go of the notions that you know what you need. Let go of what you see in the natural and look to what God is saying (whether you like it or not)! All I know is the moments I have tried to control a situation or control my life it has been a frightful mini disaster. I in turn become a hot mess thinking I have to strive to make my life happen, FALSE!!! Believe me, I am not a pro at this whole thing, BUT I have learned quite a bit about trying to keep my hands gripped over my life. The results are in: it is not a wise choice.

Today, if you find yourself trying to dictate your growth process (whatever stage you’re in) I encourage you to let go and allow God into that place in your life. The moment you let go I promise you you’ll have peace but don’t be alarmed if you feel push-back or resistance. You may reach for control again, it’s ok, God sees and has endless grace for us as He woos us back into that yielded place of surrender.

Today, take a moment and look back. •Look back to see how far you’ve come. •Look back to see how God has been faithful even when you’ve wanted to take matters into your own hands.

•Look back and find, whether you were in hope or in trial, God was there and never left your side.

•He has a plan, and it’s never changed.

He can be trusted.

Have an amazing joy-filled day!